Hopelessness and Suicidal Poems
Have you ever had a time in your life when you didn't have the strength to go on? When it was hard living day to day and even minute to minute was too much to ask. I've been there. To the world I had it made. I had 2 teenage children, a home, car and job. People cared about me. The only thing was I felt betrayed by God, because he allowed me to be brutally date raped months earlier along with losing a high paying job due to discrimination. On the outside I was happy, but every day I died a little more inside. After the rape I bought a small hand gun to protect my family, but in my depressed state one night I sat with the gun under my chin telling God I wanted to die. I prayed, but instead of death, he let me fall asleep. When I woke up I thought of my precious children so held on a few days until later the hopelessness came back so I gathered all my pills. Then called my daughter to say good-bye. Luckily she called the Pastor and he came over just as I grabbed my pills. I tell you this, because as hard as it was to keep going, I would go through "every" pain and heartache to be where I am now. I now know God loves me. I know that this life is unfair and good people suffer like you are now. I know that Satan is fighting for your soul as he did mine. Never Surrender! You hold on and don't let Satan win. The world is cruel and unfair, but you can trust a God who loves you unconditionally. He'll give you strength to endure each day when you focus on him. He will send you signs to show you he is there. A nurse killed my dad in 1996. As devastating as it was God showed me how to look through the pain to see my dad in heaven where he was happy. On the way to his funeral God put only 2 clouds in the sky and they formed a cross. God loves you and has not abandoned you like I thought he did me back then. God is faithful. I know because he showed me his love by letting me live that day. Please hold on. Don't give up. You are not alone. God and I care. I was taught those who commit suicide go to hell. I do not know if that is true or not, but I know things do get better. It takes times, but they do. No one can take away the hurts you are feeling now or erase the things that may have been done to you, but you can survive it like I did. God will help you to be strong so tell Satan to go to hell! Eventually you'll learn how not to center in on the pain, but sooner the promise. Please let me help you. Go to the Contact Page and tell me what I can do to help. It will be hard, but I promise you it is so worth it. God has things that only you can do. Never Surrender! Read other uplifting poems on the Heaven's Roll Call Website that may help.
These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation : but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. John 16:33
God's Trials Were My Triumphs
Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.
I say to the Lord, You are my place of safety and protection. You are my God and I trust you. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you can hide. His truth will be your shield and protection. You will not fear any danger by night or an arrow during the day. You will not be afraid of disease that come in the dark or sickness that strikes at noon. Psalm 91:1-6
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Get away from me, Satan! You are an obstacle in my way, for these thoughts of yours are men's thoughts, not God's! Matthew 16:23