God is faithful. I know because he showed me his love by letting me live that day. Please hold on. Don't give up. You are not alone. God and I care. I was taught those who commit suicide go to hell. I do not know if that is true, but I know things do get better. It takes times, sometimes lots of time, but they will get better one day. No one can take away the hurts you are feeling now or erase the things that may have been done to you, but you can survive with God's help. He will help you to be strong so tell Satan to go to hell! Eventually you will learn how to center in on the promises of God and not on the pain. Please reach out to me and let me be a shoulder you can lean on. I only want to help and ask nothing in return. Remember I've been there.